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Since my previous entry was done in the midst of finals, I never seem to find the time to actually sit down and let my creative juices flow with what my last minute studying and all. After 2 hours of consequent tossing and turning in my bed trying to recover the sleep time I lost from last minute cramming sessions, I gave up. My sleeping pattern is so fucked up these days because not only can I not sleep at night, I find myself dozing off haphazardly throughout the day. Just the other day I nearly banged my head on the toilet wall while taking a shower. As dangerous as it sounds, I was more amused at the thought of my capability to sleep while standing. The only mammal on the top of my head that can do the same is a horse. That pretty much qualifies as talent in my book.

Anyways, since catching some Z's is near to impossible right now, I guess this would be the best time to write an entry about my resolutions even though I am pretty sure I can barely keep up with it. Because of this I am keeping them really small, minute even, just so I won't overwhelm myself with high expectations just to discover that at the end of the year, I didn't accomplished any of it. So for this year I have made it a point to lower my expectations and start as I said earlier, small. After all the smaller the expectation the lesser the disappointment.

1. Reducing verbal abuse and assault/death threats.
I know it really isn't something you would want to hear from anyone because first of all it ruins your day and your mood. Second, I am pretty sure its a felony in some country, so that shows how scarring words can be. Plus, I am starting to realize that threatening others with words like, "I am going to cut you" or "I am going to pull your nipples so hard and make tiny ribbons out of them" perceives me as someone who is not, in a more polite term "healthy in the head". So yes, I vow that no matter how angry I get at someone or how much I would love to take a knife and stab them numerous times where they would bleed a slow bloody death yet be conscious enough to notice I am stealing their wallet, I would tone down my profanities and keep it to myself, especially because this helps save the embarrassment from people thinking that I have Tourettes.

2.Start reading the News.
I have already started doing this before the end of the year thanks to my current beau who won't stop nagging about my ignorance. By far my biggest feat, even though it really is what you are suppose to do, like squeezing at the end of the toothpaste and not the middle, or sitting while peeing when you clearly don't have the tools to stand. It's called sensibility. And to girls out there who have IQs less than a walrus, gossip columns aren't really headlines.

3. Exercise More and Eat Less Healthier
I'm ashamed to say that on numerous occasion I have been to the doctors because I tend to eat more than my tummy can handle and end up barfing it all out. It doesn't happen often, but when it does, trust me it is one of the most awkward conversations of my life, period. Because put yourself in my place, and imagine being told to eat the "right amount of food for your body"? Granted I don't have a large tank as it is proportional to my petite build, but really, being told how much to eat is like being reminded that the right shoe goes on the right foot ten thousand fucking times...in public. Just to be clear, this is totally different from Bullimia because unlike the ED I want the food to stay in my body. With my eternal love for sweet decadent food and the fact that I know I am not fat, you would realize where my predicament starts, unless I start feeling fat which usually follows up to my PMS. Still, even though I love my body, I still think it needs a little bit more toning up. Probably a few exercises here and there, nothing too drastic that I'll end up looking like a bulky gorilla, because really who are we kidding here. Ya hear that sweet marshmallow face of a belly? Ya gots to go.

 4. Going organic.

Starting with my toiletries. As expensive as they are to stock up, I manage to switch my usual shower gel and shampoo to a more environmental friendly option. Unfortunately though I use 3 or 4 different types of body wash and shampoo in a week because I am one crazy mofo. Anywho it wasn't a massive step to take seeing that I am already a big fan of organic products since they have less harsh chemicals put in them so you benefit from it more. I am also going au naturale with my make up. I don't know what this has to do with "going organic", but less is always more. Plus it will motivate me to concentrate more on my beauty regime. oo la la~~~

So that's it. My New Year's resolutions. At least it looks a little bit more promising than "not skipping classes" or "not procrastinating my studies" or "save more money". Before I go, here are pictures from Pui Yee's birthday. Had dinner at Silver Spoon and took the party to The Beer Factory. One word : Awesome.

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